OH SNAP!

I'm trying to get better at posting on my blog.. so tonight I was browsing through and sadly editing my list of goals and rewards because most of my deadlines for them have passed. Blah! Anyway.. on to new goals!


I've been doing my best to walk as much as possible to reach my goal of 150 miles in 15 weeks. I track on a chart on my motivation poster at home (I got lazy posting it here on the blog.) It had been a while since I had added up the totals so I did and posted it all on here. Drum roll please.... I REACHED MY GOAL! Eeeeeee!! I have walked 173 miles in 13 weeks. I'm so proud of myself for following through and really giving it all i've got. I've been really discouraged with the up's and down's of my weight loss but this makes me feel great. 


I'm feeling really good about making my goal of weighing 199 by Valentines Day. Especially, after seeing this! 


Here's to a new week and a new me!

Ready to get back in the game!

I can't believe how long it's been since I have posted! Well let's be honest.. I've had a rough few weeks. Vacation with my husband (mid-December) was amazing. The 4 lb gain? Not so awesome! I came home and managed to lose 3 lbs which was great but still I was discouraged. I have bounced up and down since then, it's just been a constant battle. I don't want to drag this out into a long depressing post because that's not what this is about. I'd like to try and stay positive. Lol.. I think i've finally got a pattern than I can get used to and Friday was my first WI that I've lost more than .6 in six weeks. I lost 1.4. I'm happy with that but it made me want to work that much harder. I would love to see a 2 lb loss next week. I'm going to give this all I've got. I deserve to lose this weight. My goal is to say goodbye to the 200's by Valentines day. I've got 3 lbs to go. I can make it happen. 

So close!

I hate that I don't update my blog enough! I need to get better at that. I'm going to make a goal for myself to find the time to post at least twice a week. I feel so much better after I post so I need to make a habit of it!

I had my WI on Friday and I was looking forward to seeing a really good number. In my mind.. that was like a 4 lb loss. ONLY because I didn't go to my meeting the day after Thanksgiving so I was accounting for TWO weeks. Well I lost 2.4 lbs. Don't get me wrong.. I'm really happy with that but I wasn't excited. My leader was standing there when I weighed in and she seemed annoyed with my reaction. "Amanda, 2.4? That's great! What is wrong with you?!" She proceeded to tell me that the meeting was practically empty last week and she wasn't even there. Phew! I was off the hook! I thought about it alot when I got home and I realized that I need to be happy with every ounce that I lose. Seriously. No more of this bullshit "I could do better.." I just need to stay focused and work hard. Period!

My current weight is 202. I am that freaking close to saying goodbye to the 200's AND to hitting my 5%. In order to reach both those goals at my WI on Friday I need to lose 2.2 lbs. I am going to do whatever it takes to reach that goal. I have come up with a meal plan for the next five days and I won't touch anything that isn't on it. I've been working hard and I deserve this. My goal was to always be under 200 lbs before we go on our vacation. We leave Saturday. How meant to be was this? I have to lose those last couple of pounds! The number 2.2 looks and sounds intimidating.. but I can't let it scare me. I want this so bad it hurts.

On another note.. I was doing a little shopping with H yesterday and I saw a super cute pair of jeans.. size 14. I told myself "No way am I ready.. I don't want to be discouraged." H convinced me that it's no big deal if they don't quite fit because I will just wear them in a couple of weeks when they do. Wellllll.. I slipped my legs in, feeling confident and THEY FIT!! Oh, it felt good! I haven't worn a size 14 jeans in six years. This was serious motivation for me. I can't wait to see a size 12. I'm going to work harder than I have ever worked before.

"People who say it cannot be done should not interrupt those who are doing it."

BRING ON THE 190'S!

Finally! The hard work is paying off..

I am SO happy to report that I lost 2.7 lbs at my WI this morning! Eeeee! I have been struggling over the last few weeks and it's such a relief to finally see a good loss. Last week I came up with a meal plan for the entire week and I stuck to it. I truly think that is what changed things for me this week. I'm going to do it all over again and try for an even bigger number next week!

The walking challenge has been going really well. It is totally making me want to walk more every day. Just when I think i'm done.. I go for another 10 mins. It's amazing to see what i'm capable of. Speaking of challenges.. my boss is letting me borrow her copy of P90X. I know everyone has warned me that it's REALLY hard but I want to try it. Even if I just do it two times a week as well as my time in the gym. We'll see :)

I'm giving it my all to reach my first goal by Thanksgiving. I want to be under 200 lbs. I'm 5.2 lbs away. I'm really going to push myself to try and make this happen but even if I don't.. i'm not going to be hard on myself. As long as i'm making progress and i'm happy with it, that's all that matters! For the first time in a long time.. I'm proud of me!

I'm on my way..

Let me start by saying it's been a great week so far. (Yes, I know it's only Tuesday) but I expect this feeling to stay. I came up with a full meal plan last weekend for this week and so far I have managed to stick to it! It has really helped to keep me on track. I'm also happy to report my first week with the walking challenge went well and I walked 16.3 miles last week. My goal was 10 so I'm super happy about that! I'm glad my attitude has finally turned around because I'm now able to truly give this everything. I'm more determined than ever and I am truly looking forward to my WI on Friday :)

So yesterday I came across a picture of myself and it was one of those "whoa, I actually have changed" moments. It was sad but it also made me feel good. I wanted to share a few pictures.

4/24/09-- this was me on my birthday... weighing in 220 lbs

8/27/09-- This is me and then boyfriend, now husband Brian. I weighed 225 lbs

1/2/10-- My friend Maddi & I. Here I weighed in at my heaviest.. 227 lbs.

4/10/10-- 222 lbs

again..

1/07/11-- 219 lbs

My wedding day! 5/29/11-- 202 lbs

on my Hawaiian honeymoon! 6/4/11-- 205 lbs

10/6/11-- 210 lbs

I'm proud of my progress. No, the weight isn't coming off as fast as I would like but no one said this would be easy. I knew it would be a challenge but it's one that I'm capable of OWNING. My goal is to be under 200 lbs by Thanksgiving. I have 7.8 lbs to go. If I don't make my goal, I'm not going to give up or be hard on myself. All that matters is that i'm doing my best. I have found a new strength in myself and i'm ready to show the world what I've got!

I need to shake this off..

I need to make it a goal to update this thing every day. I feel better after I do. Quick update.. I lost .8 at my WI on Friday. I just wanted the full pound so bad and I had JUST missed the mark. I tried not to let it bother me but of course that didn't work. I cried when I got in my car. I just feel like 90% of the time I am making good decisions and I am getting to the gym at least 5 days a week. Mostly 6 days. There is no reason why I shouldn't be dropping more weight!

Today was a rough day.. and for no reason. I had a really good weekend but some of my choices when it came to food and alcohol could have been better. I promised myself I would just move on and do better this week and for some reason I let it creep up on me again and all I did was beat myself up. ALL DAY. Obviously having a bad attitude led to me basically not giving a shit. I was doing okay with eating until I found myself eating a handful of swedish fish. AWESOME. I did get to the gym after work. I did 60 mins on the elliptical. I'm going to do some weight training tonight while watching Biggest Loser :)

I think I need to do a better job at convincing myself how badly I want this.. but then again, I shouldn't have to convince myself! That just sounds ridiculous. I just feel like i'm failing. I think I need to remind myself of the good I'm doing rather than just focusing on the bad. I have been getting to the gym alot which I'm proud of. Speaking of which.. I'm doing a challenge with my friend Ashlee. 150 miles in 15 weeks. Yep, 10 miles a week. I'm totally up for this challenge and I'm looking forward to it. I need to tweak my blog a little bit.. I don't even have a tab for rewards or anything like that. I'm still so new to this and I haven't spent much time on it so I'm hoping I will get the hang of it!

I will have a better attitude tomorrow and I am going to turn things around. I refuse to eat when I'm bored. I am going to stay on track and stay focused. I'm tired of just saying that.. It's about time I prove it. I'm the only one who can make the change.

Moving forward..

Where do I start? I need to get better about writing. It's been a week! And well, it's been a rough one. I'm sure I avoided writing because I gain 1/2 lb at my WI. Blah! I wasn't prepared for it but I knew it was coming. I paid for it and it didn't feel good. I don't know where I found myself in a hole but I certainly found one and I was stuck. Weird thing was it was just with food. I wasn't tracking everything I ate and I found myself snacking on things I should have just said no to. I made it to the gym every day so I am proud of that but I wish I could have followed the program better and see more of a success on the scale this morning.

I went to my WI and literally was in a panic because I just knew I had gained. I let out a huge sigh of relief to hear I had lost .4. I most certainly wasn't expecting that but it hit me and I realized how bad I want this.  I know it's not about the number but I want to see a good number on that scale so bad. I want to prove to myself that I can do this. I have had such a negative attitude and I'm trying to turn it around. My motivation smacked me like a ton of bricks this morning and I'm actually excited for this next week. I WANT to track everything I eat. I WANT to get into the gym everyday and most of all I WANT to succeed. And I will. Plain and simple. With determination and will power I will overcome this.

I'm starting this new week with a clear head and hopefully it will get me back in the right direction. I've got a great support system with some pretty incredible ladies that keep me in line and I've got a husband who sees how bad I want this and he is right there to push me. I'm not giving up.

"Suffer the pain of discipline or suffer the pain of regret."